I can't get out of my head. It's always fucking running. I fucking hate it. So then even if I don't think like a BP or if I try to be present in the moment it's like as soon as a thought comes in, like Pavlov's dog, I cave in. Has anyone had this issue and permanently solved it?

northernCAgrown · 2019-10-16T04:01:32+00:00

Didn't read all this text. Sounds like you're putting too much pressure on yourself when you try to figure it out.

You need to sit down and breathe. When a thought shows up don't fight it, listen, understand it, then keep breathing. Don't fight your thoughts but listen to why they are there.

TacticalTacktleneck · 2019-10-16T11:24:48+00:00

Give yourself time!

Thats the most crucial advice I can give you.

You are trying to actively break the conditioning you endured for half a lifetime, that‘s incredibly hard and will take time, but you’re doing the right things already, so stay the course! Set a small goal for yourself , like jumping in on the set next time in the gym, don‘t be discouraged if you can‘t do it the first time, keep trying. The hard part is not getting it right, the hard part is keeping on trying until you get it right.

There was a post in the TRP subreddit called „the invisible war“, read that up, you might find it interesting.

intergalacticmagma · 2019-10-16T04:27:29+00:00

Taking psychedelics often is probably a part of the reason you cannot stop overthinking. Slow down, friend. Better days to come

LeBroney · 2019-10-16T18:22:13+00:00

It’s like you’re describing exactly what goes on in my head. The only thing I’ve found to consistently quiet the thoughts (like psychedelics can sometimes) is meditation.

10-15 minutes is good, but 45 minutes to an hour is when you start noticing real changes. Reading a book on how to meditate, or following a set practice is also better than just sitting there.

It isn’t a quick fix, but I see it like the gym for your mind. You need to consistently practice over a long period of time, as well as follow a set training routine to see real results.

P.S. That’s not your “real” self. It may help to abandon the notion you have a set “self” at all, but an ever-changing dynamic “you”. You can definitely change, science supports this (neuroplasticity). Doesn’t at all mean it’ll be easy though.

yyyyzryrd · 2019-10-16T11:03:18+00:00

This sounds to me like Vulnerable Narcissism. Go and see if you can get yourself qualified for NPD (Narcissist Personality Disorder) by a local clinic. tVNPD has very high rates of psychological traits similar to what you have described.

I can not do much over the internet. Go check up with your clinic, and go read about it. This sounds probable enough, especially since you browse TRP and related communities.

Distractingyou · 2019-10-16T18:16:33+00:00

If you are so paranoid set up a scenario to test her if she is going to cheat, pick up your chadest friend someone who has no remorse (otherwise this won't work cause you will have a fag with morals that will pussy out of the challenge) and tell him to try to seduce her, something more easyer would be set up a fake account with a chad account you can even name him Chad and set up this profile as the most pump and dump profile you can think off, set up this profile as an exconvict thats trying to have a better life. Or something more easyer just accept its just your turn

All am i saying is set up scenarios to test her loyalty and how she deals with short vs long term gratification goals if she passes this test you can trust her.

PM_ME_UR_1ITIS_SNAP · 2019-10-16T04:20:26+00:00

Get a hobby and get off the pill shit. You know what to do, now just go out there and crush mate.

[deleted] · 2019-10-16T17:22:34+00:00

Nobody in here truly understands what you’re experiencing you can tell by the responses. I experience pretty much the same intrusive thoughts throughout the day, but there are days when it’s gone completely and it feels utterly blissful. These thoughts are almost involuntary which is why you’re so frustrated. It’s almost like a form of OCD. I would get a sleep study done and go on an elimination diet those two things are the only things that have helped me so far. I was severely sleep deprived from a sleep disorder which brought about OCD/Schizo behavior and also gluten intolerant.

Edit: I must add that you should avoid taking doing drugs like marijuana in high doses as these can make your symptoms worse. Mine were made 10x worse after consuming an edible and it took me years to recover. Good luck if you want to PM me feel free.

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