Hello everyone I am going to present this scenario to you about why I have been so down.

So here is the scenario: Last summer I had a girl who was really interested in me that I did not like that much for 3 reasons. She cheated on my best friend, she was going from guy to guy every month (not for sex but emotional reasons) and I was not physically attracted to her.

So everytime she tried to make an advance I basically pushed her away. Anyways when the school year started she dated another guy for a month and then she ended up dating this sophomore guy and they have been dating for the last year and 1 month. (While she was a senior)

So basically as I started hanging out with her more as friends and what have you I started becoming more and more attracted to her. She also was staying loyal to her boyfriend which showed me she could actually hold a long term boyfriend. Basically throughout the whole year the regret of not dating her built up every month up to where I am today where I am ready to kill myself.

Now during this time during the first 6 months of there relationship they broke up 4 or 5 times. But the other 6 months they haven’t. I recently told her last month how I felt about her and she told me that “hey if me and Jim don’t workout it’s me and you” pointing to both me and her. She also later on during us hanging out that day told me that I am her favorite person and she doesn’t just say that to anyone and she says she literally means that. I don’t know how true that is considering the fact she is still with her boyfriend.

Anyways the next 3 years she is still going to be in the area because she is spending this year taking a year off school and then the next 2 years she will be going to a school 45 minutes away. Now after her first year at college her boyfriend will then graduate college and knowing how smart he is will probably go to that college in Hawaii he wants to go to or some where far away. He has already told her that if he moves or she moves to far away from college he will end the relationship. Which makes her very upset. My question is based off this information is it worth sticking around these next 3 years or is there relationship not going to end? Like what are my chances here because I am trying to decide if it’s worth continuing this hell everyday or ending this shit? If you could please answer these questions and NOT if I should move on or don’t do it type answers that would be really appreciated. Thanks