Been getting a lot of ‘I feel like you don’t ever say I love you anymore’ and related statements from wife...
‘Do you love me more than anything?’ ‘Is our relationship your number one priority’ ‘I feel like I lost your trust’
Recovering faggot-beta-nice guy-etc., so fully realize I may have gone too far the other way and ended up in complete sperg territory as of late.
Some anger/resentment is definitely still there. Fear of falling back into my old ways. Some lack of attraction on my part towards her since having my eyes opened a little. Recognize it’s completely my fault for letting things get here. Looking at other OYS and related posts a lot of this seems normal.
Been mostly passing shit tests, failing a few of course - still learning. Recently started getting comfort tests and addressing with forehead kisses, aww babes, etc. Most go well.
But I’ve also addressed this last round of ‘do you love me more than anything else’, ‘is our relationship your number one priority’ and related questions with STFU or avoiding it in general. Some jokes and hugs/kisses/ass-slaps were able to move past them early on. But she’s kept pressing and I’m not sure how to best deal with it.
I get that she’s upset - feels loss of relationship power, general upset feeling that your significant other doesn’t love you like he “used” to, etc. All that makes total sense to me. But damn is it annoying to be pestered. I’m still here aren’t I?!? I’m not going crazy with dread, maybe level 4-5? She was pregnant shortly after I found all of this so I tried to take things slow minus a few Rambo hiccups. Things have evened out since.
I don’t want to be unnecessarily mean and spergy to her face - “No you’re actually priority 7. Next question?” Even though I don’t really give a fuck, I realize some tact can’t hurt.
I don’t want to lie either, I don’t like the idea of her thinking she is my main priority. True or not. And she isn’t, but this is a recent development over the past 8 months thanks to MRP. Which feels fucking refreshing as hell by the way... like I can finally focus on my life.
She’s being really direct and overt about all of this. So not sure what to make of it. My thoughts are to just straight tell her no. Still love you, still committed to making this marriage work. But I am doing things that bring me value. I have other priorities. Etc.
And then just deal with all the butthurt and whatever she’ll throw my way afterwards. She’s a big girl, she can probably handle it.
But again, thinking there’s a better way to deal with it? Been reading some of Jacktens stuff, just having a hard time figuring out how to apply it.
Appreciate any help, faggot-spewing as it will be. Truly can’t thank the big time MRP contributors and resources enough
Stats 6’1”, 195lbs. Still bulking Weights below are three sets of five, except deadlift (one set of five). Been doing starting strength and now HLM since before I found MRP. Squat 340 Dead 355 Bench 230 Press 155 Weighted Chins 65 (done 90x3)
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