April Update: https://www.reddit.com/r/RPChristians/comments/8dheha/phils_april_update/

The ugly

  • My oneitis is going to be gone for most of the summer. I’m pretty torn up about it. Things were going really well, but now I’m pretty lost and unsure of what the future holds.
  • I failed my budget hardcore this month. I didn’t plan well enough for in-between job transition and it hit me hard. I didn’t help the situation by trying to solve emotional pain buying things I probably didn’t need.
  • Failed my consistent in the word plan as well. I was able to do it to some degree almost every day, but not to the level I was wanting.
  • I keep falling to pornography. I rationalize that it will take my mind of things and numb how I feel and respond to other areas, and to be honest it does most of the time. I don’t see very many most of the time, but I know there are lots of negative impact to this, and I don’t it to be a “need” in my life.
  • I overthink everything and I’m tired of it.

The handsome

  • Lost 6 more pounds.
  • All my lifts are up significantly.
  • Transitioning well into my new job, which also happens to be a great mission field. Not sure where to start though.
  • I have a couple of orbiters now. They are okay, but neither have what I’m looking for to varying degrees. Honestly I don’t see the big deal at this point. Maybe it needs more time.

Appreciate everyone’s input and guidance. In my head it feels like I’m going nowhere, but I do recognize progress when I look at it logically, even though I feel “dead inside”.