We had been together for 6 years, then LDR due to education. Broke up during LDR (I once believed LDR works, its not). When we were dating, I was so fucking beta and I pedestalizer her (coz why not she's one of the hottest girl in highschool). Then she decided to broke up with me after a small fuss of not replying to her for two weeks.
I was depressed and my confidence dropped rock bottom. All these negative thinkings and emotions surged into my brain.
Was it because I am short? (I am short among my male friends lol).
Was it because I didn't communicate enough during our LDR? (I know thats bs after reading redpill)
Basically its beta post-breakup oneitis. It's worse when she told me she had a boyfriend during a gathering post-breakup
But damn I am glad coz this allows me to discover TRP community.
I moved on, realised she's keeping me as friend as a beta orbiter/provider and stopped contacting her. She knew I still liked her because she unlocked my phone with her birthday date. I changed the password. Changing everthing thats related to her.
Althought I didnt start to lift (am taking medication), my mindset and the whole perception regarding female, intergender dynamics changes.
After few months, last week, I had a hangout with group of friends including ex, we decided to end the night watching movie playing uno in one of friend's house.
We were playing uno. Not a beta now, I acted as I normally would, having fun myself and treated her like some normal girl. I was sitting on sofa and shes on the floor. She then decided to take my phone and check something knowing she could unlock my phone. I nonchalantly said the password was changed. She didnt believe it, tried then leave my phone didnt say a word.
Few minutes pass, out of nowhere she just decided to put her back on my leg and adjust her posture to watch the movie till it's time to go home. I am sure its intentional cos that's old movie and I can feel she's trying to make my leg feel her whole back and head.
I have 0 interest of getting back into LTR with her and I know my SMV peak hasnt come yet.
Why is she doing this? Is she trying to get me back as a beta provider? She told me she has a boyfriend few months ago lol. Is she trying to get validation from me thinking I would fell for it? Is she doing this to every other male? We are all around 21 btw.
What should I do if she does it again?
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