LTR continuing to whine every few days that she is afraid I'm going to leave her at any moment and that she has to walk on egg shells for fear of upsetting me and making me break up with her. She hasn't denied sex yet or been unenthusiastic at all, but several times she mentioned that when I am being more beta that she feels a better emotional connection and makes her able to be more freaky in bed. I decided to test it out and be more beta for a couple days, and sure enough, she came over and gave me an unsolicited blow job and swallowed for the first time in a couple weeks. She also sent me a video of her playing with herself for the first time in a few weeks.

So how am I supposed to balance this? Obviously if I act too beta too often, she's going to lose respect and dry up very quick. But it feels like if I don't show more beta, I'm missing out on some of her better sexuality. I'm also thinking that maybe my beta behavior didn't really have much to do with anything, and it's 99% due to the dread of me leaving that has caused her to be more sexual. Or could it be that by me increasing my beta traits the last few days, that I hit the sweet spot of 80/20 alpha/beta?