My brain is racing. I've had one hell of a day. Here goes: I've been MGTOW for 3-4 years. Recently, the urge to go on dates had hit an all-time high. I needed...no, I craved female attention. I met up with a Thai woman, owned her own business, quite successful etc. She had 2 kids - but I decided to see what happened. I was never going to co-habit etc but I decided to go on dates.

We've hooked up and been going on dates (restaurants, bars etc) for 3 months. Last night, I attempt to video-call her. Normally she accepts immediately, or calls back 30 seconds later if she missed it. Yesterday was different. I called again. No answer. She then tells me she has a headache and is going to sleep. My spider-senses were tingling. I know what this means...

So I go and see her today. She wont even hug me to say "hi". I tried to hold her hand and show some form of affection - nope, she pulled her hand away. Later in the day, she leaves her phone alone. I know the pin code, so I open it.

And what I'll see had me crying real tears, MGTOW. Real, grown-ass man crying tears.

She had a photograph with her and another man in a hotel bed (dated and timestamped exactly when I was calling her). And then she had other guys on her messenger and she was talking to them, saying it's £350 per night to stay with her.

I confronted her and she admitted she needed cash badly and she'd just joined the site (a sugar daddy site) 2-3 days ago. She admitted cheating. I've since told her we're done, i'm out. She's been crying and messaging me ever since. She even offered to pay a £110 ($130) uber to pick me up and take me to her place (she lives approx 60 miles away). She's begging me to go and see her. I've refused. Point blank, refused. Seeing photographic evidence of cheating...holy shit. That's a new one even for me. My long-term relationship (7 years) ended in my ex cheating, but I didn't see photographs of them in bed.

Why am I so upset? Well, it seems that AWALT....really. And "She's not yours, it's just your turn" is the realest phrase I've ever heard. I've dated around 40-50 women in my life, and I haven't met one that showed ANY signs of being a loyal, well-mannered, respectable woman.

Having been single for 3-4 years and then jumping back into the dating pool, it hurt me to see that it's probably worse now. With so many dating apps, cheating apps (ashley maddison), sugar-daddy apps etc. Women can be more hypergamous than EVER before.

Back to being single, focusing on me and avoiding relationships. 3-4 months of insanity over.