On the recent meetup with my friends, I noticed how rude I am towards them. Tried to figure out why. Discovered that I feel superior. Meaning, I am closer to alpha than they are. They are more leaning towards betaism. But they still are my friends.

And the feeling that I know my purpose in life, makes me feel kinda "superior" and wiser, over my friend who married his highschool gf, because he thought he would never get someone else and now is a father and has no balls in the family.