Whether it be an ex or whoever, I hear so much of it: "I'm happy." Or "I'm great." Or they'll try to one up you by bragging about great one thing in their life is going, and put you down somehow.

But then their actions and behavior suggest otherwise. Complaining about nearly everything. Even the tiniest, most insignificant things. Getting triggered by the smallest things. Having a bitchy attitude on the daily. Trashing all men, including the one they're with. Dumping a quality guy to go fuck around with low status guys who are just as childish and still in a high school mindset as them and pretend that it makes them happy and empowered. The anger they have when you point out their hoe behavior.

Excuse the oneitis just for one second, because I AM finally getting past the blue pill fairytale I had about my ex. But she is a great example of this. She claims to be happy but most of her behavior suggests the exact opposite. I pushed her far away by telling her the truth about the sad shell of a person she has become (this was a mistake I know; don't do this); she hates me for this but subconsciously she knows none of the guys she's fucked since she left me are quality long term material. And now she no longer is long term material either because she allowed herself to be used upp and acts like a child. She's currently with a blue pilled kid who is basically me 3 years ago when I met her. He has no idea about her true nature and the type of life she chose to live. He's kinda just getting played and once they start to have real conflict I bet it will go up in flames.

I'm finally moving on from the attachment I had to her on a human level. It's been sad to accept that she chose to live the life she did because I know it's not good for her. But I guess it makes sense because when girls come from weak families and households, they're pretty much destined to damage themselves through their own shortsighted decisions because they have no authority figures to sway them away from their bad influence friends.

I'm finally learning how to feel alive again without the fantasy dream of a unicorn I thought I met. It was just a dream. But that's ok. We can dream at night. But them we have to wake up and tackle the reality of life.