So i grew up with really bad social anxiety. Didn't start dating till i was 23-24. Met a tinder slut. Like a complete slut. Her tinder pictures were herself in her bra and panties. This girl had 1million red flags. BUT

I liked her. Our first dated lasted a really long time. I'd never met a girl it felt so easy and we just clicked, it was like meeting an old friend.

Things moved fast and we were gf and bf. The sex was unreal. She was hot, She was slutty, she was fun. She was cute. I completely fell in love. She made me feel like a 14 year old kid. Complete puppy love and infatuation. Head over heals. I loved her i cared for her, she was the greatest thing ever LOL. the best part of my week was seeing her, cuddling her, eating her ass etc. I couldn't get enough. I'd never experienced this. ever. Anal, a gf, love, etc LIKE FULL BLOWN ALL OF IT IN ONE GO.

After abut 6-7 months she broke up with me, then got back together, then fucked a random, then fucked me, then fucked some other guy and monkey branched to him without a sorry or nothing.

I was completely heart broken. Traumatized. I was so devastated. Complete chest pains, suicidal thoughts, crying. Worst thing i have ever experienced. This lased for a very long time literally a year and a half. Everywhere i went i thought of her. Everything i did i thought of her.

So i've finally moved on. I've learnt a lot. I realised those girls are for the streets and honestly, I don't even want a girlfriend like her. Trash. But at the same time. I NEVER EVER WANT TO GO THROUGH THAT AGAIN. I've become desentized to women. i'm scared of ever getting close again. I just fuck hookers or fuck/plate a girl if i want. That's it. Is this normal? I treat and feel that all women are inferior, whores, nobodies. I'm scared to ever experience that again.

TDLR:

- FELL COMPLETELY IN LOVE WITH A TINDER SKANK

- GOT MY HEART BROKEN/RIPPED OUT / TRAUMUTIZED FOR YEARS.

- NEVER WANT TO GO THROUGH THAT SHIT AGAIN

- SCARED TO EVER CARE OR LOVE A GIRL OR TAKE A GIRL SERIOUSLY

- FUCK HOOKERS OR PLATE GIRLS NOW WITH 0 ATTACHMENT

- SCARED TO EVER CARE OR LOVE A WOMEN AGAIN.