I’ve given up on dating. I deleted every girl’s contact I had and deleted all of my apps. I’ve blocked some of them too so I’m not tempted to message them back if they ever message me (which they won’t). I don’t really care anymore. I’ve come to realize that there is not really any hope for me because people are shallow and unwilling to look past immutable differences having to do with my psychology and development. In other words I have autism. I’ve said this before, but I think I’m much more serious about it now. The trouble that comes with dating is honestly not even worth it. Sex is just okay, and most people are incredibly uninteresting to me anyway. Also, I just can’t overcome my deep hatred of humanity. It’s something that will always drive me and consequently drive others away. My hatred comes from a place of reason and is based on 27 years of experience, in addition to studying the humanities and realizing just how cruel and evil most humans are. This is something that will not change and it’s not something that I can give up, even though I want to. We live in a bleak world and I hope it goes up in flames soon. But regardless, non-business human relationships are not a thing for me. They only bring me stress and bring me very little joy. I’ve always kind of known I would become a recluse, ever since I hit my early teens and began to realize how different I am from others, which consequently brought increasing levels of hatred for them. I knew that by age 30, I would be single, probably KHV (although I’m not), and without many friends. Well, it appears to be that I was right. However, instead of bringing shame and regret, I actually feel liberated. The idea of having no sex drive and having no need to spend time with humans sounds increasingly appealing to me as I get older. The thought of having kids or a family sounds absurd to me and I cannot understand why anyone would want such a thing. I have a job and I’m saving up for early retirement. I hope to have a net worth of $1 million by age 35 and hope to have set up multiple streams of income so that I won’t have to work. There are potential problems with this, but I have decided that I no longer want to be associated with other humans. Seeing how they treat each other and then comparing it to how they treat me tells me everything I need to know. They are pathetic scum and deserve none of my attention. Anyway, not sure why I wrote this but I guess I wanted to share my feelings, although it seems to contradict what I wrote above. I’m not looking for advice or anything. Feel free to ignore if you choose. My mind has been made up.