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I know her from 7th grade, reconnected on Facebook. Go home on leave, take her shopping, then she wants more and more. I've spent 1100 or so on her and she never gave me a second chance at sex after the first time was a failure (ED, got drunk cuz nervous, uncircumcised and not very hygienic). I ate her out doe :D

I blew up at her sometime in December and said some really hurtful shit. She said leave her alone. I do. I wait 5 months and get back up with her. Never even attempted to move on in those 5 months, tbh. She's receptive but just because I have money. End up spending 500 on her. We meet again when I go on leave and she meets me at the library and gives me her homework. I do it like a beta. We were supposed to go to lunch.

I feel relieved guys. I also feel guilty and depressed. I don't feel like this was necessary. But I didnt know what else to do, I was developing an unhealthy obsession over her that was honestly fucking up my life and abilities as a person. I wish I could go back and not be a dick like this but for monthssss now EVERYONE I talk to about this tells me to cut her off. I dont have the self control to do it amicably, so I had to do it like this.

Please tell me I did the right thing. She doesn't respect me or like me. It's a hassle getting a conversation out of her unless she wants money. Which I flaunted. A precedent I set and reinforced tirelessly because low self esteem. Or was it that she conditioned me to only be money to her and keep everything else bottled up? I think that's a possibility.