Been in an great LTR for 10 months now, she was well vetted and made a very ideal girlfriend for me. Nothing about her behaviour was a turn off or a red flag.

For the past 3 months i’ve been fighting urges to sleep with other women outside of my LTR. I’m not looking to make another emotional connection, just pure physical lust. I’m 19 y/o old male, shredded, huge social status due to my muay thai fights and i’m being thrown more ioi’s than ever before.

Yesterday i bit the bullet and broke things off with my girl, i tried keeping it light with the whole “things aren’t working for me & i need to focus on myself/training/career”

Never have I experienced such a blowup of emotions, guilt, fuck it was rough. She was breaking down & i almost gave in on my decision but followed through.

I’m not sure how i should proceed, she’s begging for me back, pleading to talk. I genuinely enjoy spending my time with her, i care for her deeply. But i know if i get back with her i’ll end up cheating, and i’d rather not have to sneak around and wind up damaging her more.

Is there anyway i can spin this and manage the two? Has anyone been in a similar situation where you had your cake & ate it too. I’m doing research into these one sided open relationships, anyone had any experience with this? Thanks