Opening girls on campus during the day has always been the hardest thing I've done. Although opening at bars and clubs is much easier, something about being vulnerable at a college campus is so frightening to me I freeze up everytime I walk by a 10. And this happens like 4-5 times a day.

God dammit. I'm in the best place to meet new hot girls and I freeze up because I'm scared of being judged or laughed at. Just writing this I remember being socially conditioned to hide my attraction when I was younger. I remember when people laughed and made fun of me for having a crush on this girl I didn't have the courage to hit on. I remember running away when my friend told this girl I did. Damn. I think I've been scarred man.

I'm trying so hard to push through this barrier. Writing is quite therapeutical, it makes me understand why I'm freezing like I do. I shall approach at least one today. Heck, I'll approach two! Growth is only achieved when you break through.