Today was another low day. I manage to get 5 numbers which is not bad but lately I've been having this cloud over me. I didn't have a date today but I did manage to sit down and study.

I wrote down my goals and studied today. I wasn't in the mood to approach, yet some how I manage to do it. There was this one approach I did that left a bad taste in my mouth. I approached this girl and I complemented her on her clothes. We started to talk and I wanted her to participate in the conversation more.

I've been just asking her question and doing most of the talking. There was an end of the conversation and there was the dreaded awkward silence. I held back every fiber in my body to step in but it was a test for her to see if she was interested at all.

She didn't say anything and said bye and walked away. That hurt for some reason. I'm honestly tired of this bitches that don't want to put in any effort at all. I guess it was a true indication that she wasn't interested, even if I got the number it wouldn't lead anything.

I re-watched a video today, Tom Terero's podcast on "Suck it up". It's a really great video from a successful daygamer that tells you the actual truth about pickup, more importantly, daygame. Tom elaborates how in daygame there are going to be more "No" than "Yes". He then goes in depth how you are going to experience all kinds of "No" from the initial approach, the meetup and getting to fuck her. Tom then gives the most practical and great advice ever when things don't go well; Suck it up.

Things go bad and the best course of action is to deal with it, learn from it and keep pushing. Tom mentions a time where he felt depressed, he then snaps out of it by reminding himself all the success he had and that he done it before and he can most certainly do it again.

That's what I'm trying to inherit. The mentality of embracing the suck and pushing through the hardship. I did have success in the past, I did get laid through seduction, it is achievable. I need to work on the little things and baby step my way.