EDIT : This post is meant to serve as an insightful look into the disturbed mind of a possessive BPD psycho girl.

So, I have a couple plates, one of which is huge on the red flag scale, been to therapy, diagnosed BPD.

She's been pushing for exclusivity. I treat her as a highly intimate FWB atm. I decided I like her enough, but I needed some info. I looked inside her personal diary as I decided to trust but verify.

The results weren't shocking - they were scary.

"[REDACTED] is great, he's starting to spend alot of time. [REDACTED] is mine."

"Spent the Day with [REDACTED] - he is so cute. He is being more affectionate towards me. I'm getting closer and closer to him."

"I told him I love him today for the first time today - he said he loves me too. [REDACTED] belongs to me now."

"[REDACTED] is really paranoid - I told him I was hanging out with another guy today, and he immediately thought I was fucking someone else!"

"I told him I want to be exclusive - he said he'd give it a try, he is so sweet. He is all I think about."

"We went on a date today, but it ended with a disaster. I told him I was hanging out with (ex-bf's name here) and he dumped me. What an asshole, why would he dump me?"

"[REDACTED] won't be exclusive with me. He fucks other girls. All I want is to love him and have him all to myself."

"He told me I dont deserve to be exclusive with him. I cut myself in his backyard."

"I hung out with (A) today, and he did things I didnt want to do, we did them 6 times. I told [REDACTED] about this, and he laughed at me and said it was a good thing that it happened (she had sex with A.). Why cant [REDACTED] just love me? Why does he hate me so much?"

"A used me again. Why can't [REDACTED] Just love me. He is my [REDACTED]. He is all I need in this life."

"[REDACTED] is such a hypocrite. He has been fucking girls this whole time, and accuses me of cheating and fucking other guys. Cant he see he is the only one I want?"

So, I see I'm not actually a lover with this girl - I'm a trophy. Scary shit... she's texting me right now - "I'm sorry about being emotional, let me take you out to dinner."

I was hanging out with this FWB today, I brought up (A), and she exploded in yelling. I took her home immediately and told her to cool off and have been ghosting. These chicks are crazy. She used this (A) guy to replace me, but she spreads rumors abut him, saying he raped her.

Yeah, totally got "raped" 6 times, LOL.