22 yo, eastern Europe here.

As I finished my cutting very well for the end of the year(lifting for 2 years, never had better body), I made Tinder account again. 2 weeks, over 400 matches, but very lack of numbers/meetings. And I was in some kind of monk mode since september, havent met with any chick since then. This post is the honest katharsis for my situation this night. I invited this chick to my flat for some „420” and good movie. Haven’t known her before and made only about 15 messages with her, mainly for logistics. First time somebody agreed for that and didnt flake. Went to bus stop for her, HB7. Made invite by a kiss on a cheek, when she wasnt expecting that. But that was ok then. Did some conversation as we walked into my area, she sat in my bed and I bringed up some wine for her, as I suggested her that i have some. When convo was going silent, she was breaking up this silence constantly, played with her hair, and I was more listener than speaker in this conversation, and she said about it to me that she thought that I would dominate the conversation. At some time when we were laughing at the was close and looking on my eyes, i went to kiss. No resistance on her side. But she wasnt going deeper into that, was like a very very shy but kiss was perfect. Looked up on me and said with smile. „Why you did this?” And i said „cause I could” and went for another kiss. After some time (and convo was going so good I havent seen that this was 2 hours) went for a kiss again and some more, but she resisted this more thing. Said „what you do think about me and what do you want?” As i smiled and said „i want to trust my instinct”. She:”And thats all?” i:”yup”. And after couple of minutes started harder, resistance again. She asked me why I invited her, not some other chick here to my flat. I said:”cause i wanted to invite you, but im was not thinking a day and night why you” smiling. But i think that this was some fuckup. Went sleepy after that and ordered her a taxi to her house. During goodbye..i wanted to go for a kiss in the mouth, but she made some kind of hug like a 13y.o. girl. I dont think that I will see her again. Text would make me look needy, maybe tommorow. Or next week. Or she would send something? Fuck that. And this regret in my heart that I fucked this up. Maybe next time and next chick.

Tl;dr Had a girl from Tinder in my flat on the first meet. Went for kiss but hadn’t sex.