Out of all the dates I've been on with all types of girls, I don't think I've actually ever had fun. Looking back on it, all of them just seem like carbon copies of each other; no interests, no hobbies, nothing interesting to say. It's all been a waste of money. I remember going on a date with this girl last year and we went into this kebab joint and I just bought some fries because I ate pizza before I came, so I just let her pay for her own meal because that seemed fair. Anyway, she didn't like this at all. The rest of the date went fine but the next day she called me complaining about how she didn't like that I let her pay for her own food. I hung up on her and called it quits and decided to say "fuck dating".

Unfortunately, I still find chicks physically attractive so I'm often tempted to do something about it (which I usually regret). So I asked this chick out yesterday when I wasn't in my right mind and now I'm picturing how the date is gonna go, how boring she's gonna be and what a waste of time and money it will be. I almost feel like I asked her out expecting her to say to say no, just so I can say at least I tried. That seems kinda fucked up, and maybe it is. Anyway, I think I'm gonna cancel the date and save myself the trouble and the boredom.