Hey everyone,

So, I use a few apps for online dating. Generally I only talk to women that are younger and that have no children. I don't consider myself a MGTOW fully, but I've always never wanted baggage with a woman. Anyway, I connect with this great woman (28). Shes military at the local base, funny, easy to talk to, very smart, and a knockout. after a ton of messages back a forth. I ask her to meet me for coffee the next day. She says maybe because shes really busy the next day. Red flags go up in my mind, but I cut some slack because hell she may be to busy. It was kind of short notice anyway. the next day I hear nothing back, thought I got ghosted. Said screw it and just chalked it up as a waste of time and effort. No big deal, just move along I thought. The next day and she messages me again and we start talking once more. I ask what she was up to that afternoon. "I was with my babies" shit fuck damnit I think. I was under the impression she didn't have children, and there was no notification on her profile. I'm thinking there is no way she has any with that body.

Come to find out that she has 3 kids, BUT they are all adopted. none of them are biological. Immediately I feel like the biggest piece of shit. This woman may legitimately be a angel. I told her that and she said something to effect of "I'm sure you have done your share of good in the world". No I haven't i thought. All i could think of was how much money and time i would have to invest if we were to get serious. I was thinking she would never have time to date, hangout, fuck, just be in a relationship because of 3 adopted kids...I felt like shit because this is all i could think about. So I told her that I could never do that and exactly what I was thinking. She still tried to reassure me that it wasn't for everyone, it was just the type of person she was. I basically said good luck and that we were polar opposites. I fucking regret it because of the type of person she is. There is nothing bad about her that I could see...just a bunch of kids.

I later showed a good friend that is an ultra liberal, not a cuck, the whole exchange. He basically said I needed therapy and I might have a touch of sociopath in me. So I'm kinda at a crossroads in my head am I really that shitty of a guy? I'm kinda mind fucked right now.