I will tell ya all a story. I was 20 and met a girl at her 17. So I was wandering around at the time on Pua and already had lays sorts of girls. It was summer, I was living in my blue pill fantasies.

I had met a group of people who we shared the same taste of music together and clothing style, wearing extreme rap fashion shit. One of the guys who trusted me the most, though I didn't, was eager to introduce me to his "girlfriend's" Jane's cousin Maria. cus she saw my social media profiles and was claiming interested.

I refused, being bored and all blue pill excuses. He had finally convinced me to go afterwards, so I go, I run some game routines and notice his girl (together for 2 weeks) was giving me all sorts of IOI.

Not to blah blah eventually after weeks I gave in and confessed my feelings to her, after having her push saying she broke up with her dude and complained about him to me.

I started dating her, Jane was the most beautiful girl I had ever met. Those almond eyes, brown color. Straight long brunette hair, perfect face shape and an ass that was going to be a sex bomb when she reaches 26. I wasn't struck by that abstract beauty I had discovered from the start though.

I'll be honest here too, I hadn't given any sort of commitment to this girl and fucked other girls while we were platonically dating. Sure I was feeling like an ass for that kid who trusted me and I fucked his bromance and respect for me.

Took this talk to Jane eventually and she revealed her ex boy dissed me, and said shit about me being ugly before we all went out together and Jane my unicorn fell in love with me. I was hamstering to believe the crap she said and rationalize my behavior, convince my self I'm not a bitch.

Next things we broke up with Jen after a month cus her older sister was "violent and controlling" and she couldn't see me anymore blah blah I flew off to fuck girls.

I was fine until I saw her again a month later and we made out again. I was not happy because I wanted to fuck other women again, anyway I left town for vacations and I soon as I returned I was in a relationship with her, after a lot of shit tests of course and my betaness having hit the skies I pursued her.

It was that. After giving her commitment and all sorts of attention and jealousy, it didn't matter if I was applying game tactics anymore. I wouldn't look at other girls and think fucking them thanks to unicorn Jane. I was obsessed. She was a virgin, wouldn't let me fuck until I put a lot of patience and finally did.

For a year we were dating seriously, like a couple or something. She was abusing my emotions in any way she could to make me run behind her and ask sorry when she had the fault, of course many times I'd just dump her but then after a few hours crawl back to say I missed her. Bullshit.. 2 years later we finally broke up and hadn't been in contact for a whole year and I took the plane to another city for 6 months. During which, I discovered TRP but yet I had oneitis, I'd go to the gym so I impress her when she "randomly" meets me outside. I was eager to see her.

I'd check my Instagram and get paranoid that she's making fake profiles to see how I'm doing, I was in beta blue pilled denial for my own sake.

I saw she had unblocked me after a year so I sent a message arranging to meet, we met. We fucked. I was disappointed. The girl started talking about her new relationship and how she's broken up with Billy who she loves and I changed subject and fucked her. She then says she's in love with him and she's sorry. The bipolar princess was no longer the girl I had invented once. I was stuck in my blue pill fantasies.

I should call her again.

Nah just messing with your head. I can finally enjoy my abundance and the fact that I've been away from her ever since, fuck new pussy and at last feel like a man again.