I dedicated myself to MGTOW a few months ago after some sort of awakening. I've always been really good friends with this girl from my work, but it's always been strictly platonic and we've been in a relationship for most of the time. We went through a breakup at the same time more than half a year ago and we helped each other through it on a friend level.

Fast forward to last week. We were hanging out at a mutual friend's party and were drinking wine. We started vibing very well and flirting and for the first time in my friendship with her, I got butterflies in my chest. After I went home, I started having a crisis and tried to get rid of those feelings.

But ever since that night, things are different between us. I'm the head chef of the restaurant we work at and she stands next to my window all the time just watching and joking around with me. I even went to her house last night and drank some wine with her and things got really deep to the point where I left before I did something I regretted.

I'm falling for her hard. I want to dedicate myself to MGTOW, I really do, but my heart is no cooperating. I want to be master of my domain, I want to resist the temptations, I want to just remain a platonic friend with her but we're seriously getting closer everyday and there are forces out of my control.

How do I cancel feelings for someone? What can I do to nip this in the bud before it gets out of hand? If I can't stop this soon, I don't think I will last much longer.