I became kind, generous, and polite. I looked out for everyone. I sacrificed myself for the greater good. I got the successful job and the nice place so that I could be happy and settle down with a girl.

However, no girls wanted me. They appreciated what I was, but they were not interested.

Furthermore, I wasn't safe. Stronger and more ruthless men beat me mentally, physically, emotionally, and financially.

Life was hard for me. The man that my mom wanted me to become was destined for failure, and that's exactly what he did. He failed.

That man ended up leaving the successful job he hated that was putting on the front that his mother wanted. He went off on his own and embraced his existential depression about his wasted life.

Some would say he went into monk mode, but in many ways he was just sad and broken. Over time, he began embracing what had happened and embracing the world as it is. He understands now that the world is hard for men, and in many ways harder for men because society thinks that life is not hard for men and will not hear his issues.

As he tries to re-enter the world, he stumbles and falls. Women attack him for no reason. These are "tests" he is told. However, he doesn't care. He does not want to be tested. He is not interested in the women.

When he finally fights off the women, they try to get him in bed with them. However, be doesn't want to be in bed with them. He doesn't like them. The only thing he wanted was to be left alone in the first place.

Now he is stuck with fighting them off, so that they cannot gain any footholds into his mind or heart. They hate him for this. They despise him for the rejection. They go to war to save their reputation.

He does not care. He will not give in to the aggressive. He continues to fight, to ignore, and to remain alone as best as he can.

As he sits with you now, he is a man who is alone. Not necessarily by choice, but because the world has become hostile to him. He is not strong enough to survive, let alone displace, stronger and more experienced men in more powerful positions. He is also not strong, savvy, or experienced enough to fight off the women who all seem to be trying to take him down by force, whether it's to test his strength, try to get him for themselves, or tarnish his name.

He does not like anyone anymore, not really. He does not trust anyone, either. He sees his mother as someone who lived off his father while complaining about it the whole way. He sees her deceptions and tricks that she plays. He looks at her with sadness and disappointment when she tells him that she loves him, but refuses to offer any aid. Instead, she backs her new live-in boyfriend in his story that I'm better off on my own.

He does not trust his father, who is a blue pilled simp who thinks he should go back into the job he hated and caused him health issues from severe stress. His father offers nothing but the nervous and fearful condemnation that he would have for himself if he were in his shoes.

There's no one left. He's on his own. Everyone else is similarly lost, unable to help, or similarly consumed in their own battles such that they have nothing to offer. With nothing left to give and no one he wants to give anything to anyway, he walks alone.

Now, here he is on MGTOW. Future TBD.