I appreciate your help and support here. I was raised till i was six by a single mother. She is successful in her profession and independent /strong minded. I love my mom, but i wasnt raised to be a man. I was raised to cater to women. This fucked with me my entire growing up. The need to feel "loved" and getting ran through for years was just a self destructive cycle.

At 21 i got divorced after a 4 month marriage to a psycho bitch. You all really made a difference in my life when i discovered this sub on another account and would need men to turn to for sound advice. Similarly, i have recently cut off a toxic relationship that seemed to be so healthy in my eyes. The advice i received here has been gold treasure id never sell. I realized how much i put into that relationship and how little i got out of it. I realized she would leave whenever my bank rolls slowed and come back once i was back on my feet, because i didnt have her to spend all my money. I realized this is the same shit i dealt with in every relationship and im grateful for you all for showing me actual light on this awful situation we live in. Ill be much happier on my own and i appreciate the wisdom and confidence i gained from you all to do so. I hope this society changes from the trash it is today- till then im chillin out and enjoying the moments i get to myself. Best wishes to all of you.