Well what the fuck can I say I actually literally feel like a bitch right now. I lost frame to a 11 yr old girl the brat has been fucking with me to the point where i got emotional and almost physical. I don't know why but I was thinking of her as an equal in my mind although I tried to ignore her , amuse and amplify etc the child was a persistent bitch. I might me making excuses but I did fucking try to hold frame I feel like I have really shattered the image i had of myself I can't believe what I just did , i am so far from who I want to be , it almost seems not achievable.I don't even feel like a man, i was already insecure about it now it seems like I am living my nightmares.

Guys I still have to deal with the child and her parents also other people have seen me lose my shit . What do I do ? I am not afraid of what might happen because I will suck it up as another one of my failures but if I can i would like to fix my situation.