Food for thought!!!

I always knew it to be true, logically at least. If you spend so much time looking at attractive women, you're bound to compare subconsciously to your wife and find her to be less attractive physically.

Now, after nearly thirty days (still going strong for no nut November!!), I've started to internalize that feeling from an emotional perspective too. This morning I woke up and my wife says to me

"Did you know what you did last night?"

"Huh? No...what happened?" I asked confused and still half asleep.

"You were kissing me and grabbing me and telling me I'm so beautiful and I'm so gorgeous!", she said while laughing.

We both started giggling while she continued making fun of me. And I know, sometimes I do funny things when I sleep. This time I couldn't help but relate my sleeptalking antics to my abstinence from porn/masturbation. Because deep down inside, she HAS looked more beautiful to me. To the point where it's even reflected in my subconscious when I sleep.

Probably being more horny has something to do with it I'm sure. But now, since I have no other way, I'm always after her in a fun and cute way that she obviously loves. And she's never looked more gorgeous to me.