I feel silly asking this because if I were a man, I wouldn't even be burdened with the question. I won't get into the gory details because that's not what this sub is for, but basically I've started imagining real men who I used to know instead of fictional men. Of course, they are males so I have to completely change their motives and personalities in order to feel stimulated by the thought of them, but the faces and bodies belong to living, breathing men.

I was just struggling with the idea that I am a hypocrite. Is what I do in any way comparable to men watching porn? Is it worse, because these are men I have actually known and been intimate with?

If anyone is uncomfortable with this topic being discussed here, please comment and I will remove it. I want to uphold the integrity of this space but I know that if I ask this question anywhere else, I will be met with the typical liberal response that it's all fine and good and totally not immoral. I mean, most people think looking at women on Instagram and watching porn for hours a day is not infidelity.