So i used to be a blue pilled cuck, started to change after starting college. I started getting laid a lot more. Than I met a girl and basically had her and another plate and she got upgraded to an LTR. She was a good girl, obedient, great sex, and was hot. Then the school year ends early due to rona and we would have been long distance for over 6 months minimum, so I dumped her.

Now it’s been a few months and I’ve been reading TRP and have been working on myself, am employed and have been going out recently.

Problem is I don’t enjoy the chase anymore. I don’t want abundance, going out and talking to girls isn’t fun for me, and I miss the intimacy of my LTR, and having someone who supported me and was someone I enjoyed the company of. I think going back wouldn’t be right but I can’t shake the thought that I made a mistake and ruined the exact thing I earned by working on myself.

How to I get through this?