I'm having my 19th birthday today and i'm a complete virgin. I know TRP for 2 years. I've lost 40 lbs and made me way up in the gym, Got good grades in high school, learned how to dress better etc. If i look back at 16 year old me then hell, I thank god for finding TRP.

The problem is that i have 0 skills with women, Throughout the years i never had any healthy interaction with women. I was raised by a single mother so never had a male role model. I just soaked up a lot of women's nature - Manipulative, Hypergamous, Validation seeking, insecurity and list goes on.

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I'm feeling like this shit is just irreversible, My thinking patterns are so fucked up - Everytime i think about the fact that no metter what i do, There will be always someone smarter than me, better looking than me, Whatever. So why even bother trying with girls. I have a shitty incel like mentality and i want to change. I always think that girls will never want me because i'm not good enough, And always coming back into a permanent procrastination like monk mode (In terms of dealing with my problems with women).

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TRP Saved my life, If it wasn't for TRP i'd be already killing myself. I'm 19 now and i dont want to live like this anymore. Can someone advice me what route/life changes i should be taking in order to stop giving a shit about women and stop thinking like one?

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Thank you very much.

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TLDR: 19 years of 0 healthy interactions with girls & being raised by one made me think and act like a women. How to fix this?

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