Or sexual experiences as a whole? (Sex with randos in dirty bathrooms, self harming sex)

Recently met a girl who checked all the boxes for bullet (more like an ICBM), 19 years old and with a n-count of more than 50, small cuts on her arms and legs (self harming) weird fantasies, razors on her bathroom, mental illness all over the place.

I guess the modern romantization of mental illness got to me and now I have curiosity for all of this. Hell Im just telling you guys the details(ncounts and sex experiences) because I actually asked her.

"All of this feels really good and delicious" were her words before I stopped thinking clearly