Recently i've been feeling down. Which I shouldn't be I just landed a job making 75k. I have my own house and nice car. But i'm feeling down. When I look at girls I see them for what they are now. Hypergamy. I've gotten laid like 2 months ago and know I can again I just don't want to.

I'm 24 and been redpilled for five years now, thanks to redpill i've gotten 15 lays since I started and in the beginning I had two. I don't plan on getting married. I quit smoking cigs for like a month and weed for 3 months now but I started to smoke black in miles again to help with the depression, figured it's a middle ground. I've been sleeping alot from 8pm to 8am everyday(not because i'm tired but to get away, weed use to do that for me but I quit). I then go to work(engineer) come home, read a book and go back to bed.

I live in a new location cause of work so I have no guy friends. I just signed up for a gym two days ago which is good. But, I don't lack women I get 1 to 4 tinder matches a day, and have had girls chatting me up everywhere. I just don't want it.

I'm 3 days into nofap which is a new part of my new mission and going to start a new workout routine soon trying to gain ten pounds of muscle. So I figure i'll go monk mode until this passes. But will it pass on it's own or is there something I should be doing? My mission is to be a high value man and to help my family and one day buy laptops for as many low income kids as possible btw.