I (25M) have been in a relationship with this girl (24F) for the last 5 months. Her ex broke up with her only a few months before we started dating, which left her in a very emotionally delicate state. Since we got in the relationship, she has accused me of:

  1. Not paying attention to her at parties
    This was completely bs. I would walk around her like a dog in these parties except for a few moments and just wait for her to give some of her time to me.
  2. Not listening to her
    I accepted that I sometimes act like an asshole and suggest ways to solve her problems when she just wants to have listened. And I did become better with time.

For the above two reasons, she broke up with me twice within 2-3 months into the relationship. I was an emotional mess as this was my first serious relationship and so I kept calling/texting her like a maniac, just for another chance.

She did give me another chance. But during our entire relationship, she would fight very often with me. Disrespect me, even in front of other people. But I just took it up over me as I loved her and thought that she has these emotional issues she needs to deal with.

Moving forward to now, she mentioned one day that she may have lost feelings for me. Since the last few days, she said she is very irritated about everything and has completely ignored all my texts/calls. She said she doesn't want to talk to anyone, but just before this, she talked to her ex, and her friends. I, being an asshole, stalked her reddit username (which she is unaware of) and found out that she made this post on a sub, saying that she is thinking of waiting till her internship ends to break up with this guy she has lost feeling for.

I asked her point blank if she wants to break up, but she said there's nothing like that. I have kept texting/calling her, trying to make her feel better. But she keeps ignoring me and disrespects me.

I am an emotional mess at this moment. I cant get over her. I feel as if she was the one for me and I fucked this up.