I’m (20M)filled with rage from the red pill. I’ve been red pilled for years but it’s really starting to hit me.

I missed out on teen love. I have 1 year of college and I completely missed out on relationships during my school years. Harsh redpill, I’m not the 20% of men in my age group. My college experience has also been shit due to covid but still. I’m probably around top 50% or 40%. I am relatively fit and I’m tall. Most people my age have had at least their first kiss. It is not normal for a 20 year old to have 0 experience. I sort of regret fucking up the couple of easier opportunities I had in the past.

Women (friends and crushes) have red pilled me consistently throughout my teen years. Here are some examples

I’ve had women friends tell me about their first kiss, but on a later date say they’ve never had it. When I brought up, she said it didn’t count. I realized women try to seem pure as possible because they know men see it as desirable, just rationalizing their experience as “not counting”. As a guy with basically no experience it pisses me off because we are not the same.

I’ve been rejected many times. Eventually it redpills you. There have been times when I try texting a girl for the first time and she immediately deletes my social media. No chance.

I’ve had women lead me on. Obvious hints were dropped but she suddenly had a boyfriend.

I’ve had women rate me a 3/10. Not sure if she was trying to piss me off or legitimately rating me that low but I’m not that ugly. This red pilled me hard. Women don’t see you as a 1-10 like you guys rate women. It’s just pass /fail. I failed so I was rated low.

Having to wait hours and days or even weeks for a basic social media reply. I’m probably busier than some of these women my age but they still take forever (literally) to even send a text back. It disgusts me how high their ego is.

Then I look at the long game and realize even if I get a good girlfriend, she will have at least 10+ simps waiting for me to mess up. Either she cheats or lines up the money branch for when I mess up.

Marriage is supposed to be end game but it’s turned into one of the biggest traps society lays on men.

These harsh realizations keep me in the rage stage. Not sure how anyone isn’t enraged by these red pills.