I'm not entirely sure if this is the right place to be posting this. But I'm also not sure where elsewhere I should turn. I'll try to keep it as nondescript as possible in order to avoid this sounding pornographic in nature.

Long story short ignoring a whole host of sexual issues our relationship has had for the longest time, my wife walked in on me touching myself. I don't like doing that in front of her so usually I stop doing it when she walks into the room.

I did stop, but this time I was feeling really frustrated about my lack of climax so to speak, so I told her I needed her help.

Like I said, I don't want to get into too much detail and turning this into something not safe for work or what have you, but essentially I ended up taking my wife in a variety of ways doing all the things I usually enjoy doing to her but this time simply not asking permission before doing them and instead just demanding she get in this or that position while I do my thing.

After I finished she merely walked into the bathroom, took a shower and then went back to bed.

We've talked about various other things since then, she still says she loves me and we cooked dinner and did dishes and laundry and all that basically just resuming our day to day lives.

I want to talk to her about what happened. I'm just not sure how to broach the subject. This is the messed up part though, it's not because I feel guilty over it. But rather, because I found it to be a massive turn on how I basically just sexually objectified her and had my way with her without discussion.

Usually when I ask permission for things such as fellatio and the like it's like pulling teeth trying to get certain sexual favors in. She'll grunt and groan and roll her eyes and otherwise be completely disinterested.

But when I just took what I wanted and she just let it happen and followed orders without protest, it was one of the most liberating sexual experiences of our relationship, clearly just for me.

I realize this makes me a terrible person. But I'd like to do it again. I'm just not sure how I should even go about telling her "Honey, I loved sexually objectifying you and want to do it more often". Or if I should never talk about it and just initiate it when I want it again without discussion and see if she'll just lay there and let it happen again.

tl;dr:

I sexually objectified my wife during intercourse and want to do it again but am not sure if I should talk it over with her or continue having sex in the way I want, when I want so long as she continues not to fight it.