I am probably going to be putting some BP stuff, So kinda bear up.

20M

It’s been more than 7 months since I started reading RP, I stopped reading it in February and I read some stuff now and then. I have only made 1 approach! Only One! In which I kind of shitted my pants but was able to put on a poker face.

I want to go out and make approaches and fail/succeed but In India, The corona problem is way out of hand, It’s not that I am scared of getting the virus (Okay sort of I am), There are no girls out in the city, There are no girls in downtown area (Downtown is partially closed), The Universities and colleges are fully closed.

I’ve been hitting gym since 7 months (Due to gyms getting closed again, I bought gym stuff for home) , I’ve gained 10Kgs, went from 59 to 69, My goal is 75-77KG. I have lower back fat and love handles (cuz I am gaining) but my arms, chest, back looks good by the grace of god. I’ll shred later.

I uploaded my pictures on tinder and bumble but damn I got no matches at all. My friends got more matches than me. I was kinda bumped. I dress better, I go to gym, I am very selective of my photos. I am average looking guy (Not above average, Just average). I read the TRP guide for tinder.

So Online game didn’t workout. I honestly got sad (partially depressed), I think I just wanted a few matches (Matches=validation, I know this is BP mentality) When my friends got more matches than me I was honestly so envious. They don’t go to gym, They don’t workout, They are slightly better looking then me. I know the world is unfair but it just ripped my confidence.

I just want to get laid, I will not to act desperate (As it’s the biggest turn off), it’s just Some days I don’t know what happens and I feel like a mess, I feel horny to approach and fuck a girl but I can’t go to prostitutes and masturbate (Strict religious reasons).

Right Now, I can’t read anymore Redpill stuff it’s just mental masturbation, I just want to go out and make cold approaches and deal with my approach anxiety.

If any vanguard or EC can give me advice at this point of how to calm my mind in this situation I’ll appreciate it.