I've been lurking TRP for a while and doing my best to internalize and develop myself not only based on some info I gather from here and some that I gather from the world. In the time that I've spent developing myself, I've developed a killer physique, am the director of a department at my job, and overall spend most of my time chasing goals and dreams and working to make myself better than I was yesterday. That's pretty much all I do now and my schedule for the day is almost dialed down to 10 minute increments in what I plan to do, but I am still flexible enough to deal with anomalies that may affect my schedule.

After reaching where I've reached now, I've noticed a stark difference in my attitude and feelings towards women. And, they've noticed it, too. I have some female acquaintances that have said I just seem indifferent towards women. One was questioning if I was straight or not because I am receiving certain kinds of attention from women and they are getting zero reaction from me. In general, I've found that I just don't really pay much attention to women anymore. I can see women and find them attractive, but I am not particularly inclined to pursue them. If anything, I feel a little averse to pursuing them because it feels like you're dealing with a box of chocolates: sure, it might taste good sometimes, but you never know what you're gonna get. I prefer to deal with situations I can logically predict the outcome of, or at least somewhat control the outcome of, but I have noticed dealings with women rarely follow logical sequences or can be controlled at all. In the end, it makes me not just want to deal with it, example: I have no idea what's going to happen if I interact with this particular woman, but I do know that if I go to the gym, workout X muscle group, take X amount of steps and eat Z many calories for D amount of days, I'll likely achieve in the ball park of R results. I'm not sure if anyone else feels this way and if it is strange, how can I best overcome it?