This is a very long story but I assure you, it will be worth reading. I need to get it off my chest because right now I'm sitting here just emotional / emotionless / in a state of shock.

I'm a "good" member of society. I work, pay my bills on time, pay my taxes - never do anything illegal etc. Call me what you want, but I'm not a bad guy. I've been cheated on a bunch of times - lied to. You name it. The worst one was my 6+ year relationship where we were supposed to be getting married and she decided to cheat on me. 6 years of my life WASTED for a woman....god, I could cry....How some of you guys spent 20 years with a women and then she left, I don't know how you made it through...

Anyway, after banging a bunch of chicks (I never lied to them, I told them straight up what I wanted) I meet this Asian chick. She's got children and we got on like a house on fire. I'll cut to the chase. I ended up googling her name and it turned out she's a popular/known escort. After 10 months of knowing her, I finally got to the point where she explained EXACTLY what goes on in escort circles, and EXACTLY how many men they get through.

Today, she allowed me to see the phone that the men contact her on. Within 10 mins, she had 4 different guys booked in. Now, this particular escort doesn't do full sex (FS in escort terms) anymore (she did as recently as 3 weeks ago) but I tried to talk her out of it (another story for another day), but she had 4 guys book within 10 mins, each spending between 40-60 for an hour with her. Now, the average UK salary was £38,600 for a full-time role and £13,803 for part-time role. After tax, the 38,600 figure works out at £114 a day. She'd made that within 1 hr 30 mins. In fact, she was on track to make £300 per day (that's BEFORE doing anything beyond "hand relief"). In fact, by this alone, if it was everyday she'd make £62,400 per year - which puts her in the top 10% of earners in the UK. Make of this what you will. Just stating facts.

Now, it's my personal opinion that anyone visting an escort is a fucking simp. You can tell yourself you're not, and tell yourself you're MGTOW, but to me personally, it's hardcore simping. Encouraging this behaviour. Some of her friends are more "high class" escorts - one of whom was (almost) a millionaire from living the lifestyle for so long. Her entire body is basically silicone - she's a walking sex doll. One thing all of these escorts have in common: they get 10's of guys per day. Do you REALLY, REALLY want to have them touch you? But by her opening up to me and telling me what happens: these guys don't give a shit that the escorts have fucked 1,000+ guys - they continue to line up to get a nut. It's fucking disgusting!!!

If this particular woman (the friend I talk about in the beginning) didn't do this, she'd probably be a (fairly) good catch. She's naturally very pretty, big fake boobs but they don't look silly on her frame. She's a nice person once you get to know her, but I can't help but feel sick - read this again: I feel physically sick knowing that she's servicing at least 4 guys per day.

To me, there's nothing more simpish than being the 2nd or 3rd or 4th or 5th guy who walks in there right after her hands are washed and doing the same again.

I wish she'd leave that life and I told her so as a friend, but I know she never will. The money is too good and she said (in so many words) that she loves these desperate guys coming in because A) she gets to see their junk and B) makes a truckload of cash doing so.

For me personally, seeing her two sweet children growing up and not knowing what their mother is doing brings a fucking tear to my eye. I really am sitting here in a state of shock right now. Their children think I'm her boyfriend and we've got a lovely relationship going on - sometimes I go to visit her and talk and see how her kids are doing. They get so excited to see me and think I'm her boyfriend.... but they don't know (and hopefully will never know) what their mum really gets up to.

I think I need to see a fucking shrink. My brain is fubar. Before anyone says: "You caught feelings for an escort?!?" - I had no idea she was an escort. I knew she was doing massage/happy endings but I had no idea about the rest of it until last week. I've known her for 1 year. We dated for a while but once I found this out, I couldn't continue. At this point she opened up to me and told me EVERYTHING that has happened in her past and what goes on with escorts.

So MGTOW, the choice is yours, but I couldn't personally bring myself to bang an escort / sex worker. I feel sick and very sad for her children. I wish I could win the lottery and I'd try to get her out of the life. But the problem is, she doesn't see it as a problem, so chances are she'll stay in the life.

I need your thoughts and comments bro's!