I'm old enough that people tell me "You're still single at this age. There is clearly something wrong with you. You just don't get dating."

When I was young I never really found dating interesting. I only remember seeing couples fighting but my parents told me that was love. I thought love was abusive but my parents told me to stop being so negative. My parents always told me they were worried about my future because I spent most of my time alone.

I started getting older and my friends started telling me about their romances like Disney fairytales. Because I was under the influence of hormones I desperately believed it. I never thought love could be so wonderful unlike my parent's relationship or older couples. It just seemed that all the young couples are happy and old the old married couples are bitter but I never knew why.

I was too serious as a child. I wanted to be like Tesla but people told me "anyone can be Tesla if they study hard but most men will never be an alpha male who gets all the girls". I could never pass shit tests because I never wanted to deal with shit like that. My ideal partner was someone who was like myself but female. I spent a lot of time searching for that unicorn but people told me it was impossible. They were right and I should have given up.

I spent years trying to date and got humiliated by my friends. They told me I must be very retarded if I don't understand dating or women. They told me as an insult, "You're so low value that only a sex bot would love you".

I discovered MGTOW one day and thought it was a pickup tactic to attract women by acting aloof and doing your own thing so that women would pick up on your disinterest and chase you like a king. I spent a lot of time reading MGTOW and realizing I was a slave to hormones and a slave to society.

I think there is something wrong with me but I'm not sure. I'm too serious and rational and I don't care about impressing others. My parents and friends would rather I spend all my money and go broke trying to get a girlfriend instead of sitting on my ass and counting my cash as a single man.