I’ve paid for sex twice, both times within the last year.

I had been going through a long dry spell of no-sex at the time. I was overweight, had no game and felt such low self-esteem and that I was unattractive that in my mind paying was the fastest easiest solution.

The second time it was a threesome.

Both times I did it because I was depressed and sexually frustrated. Both times I regretted doing it and I felt very guilty and disgusted at myself for doing it. I was surprised I did it a second time but I couldn’t help myself.

I still browse the escort personal listings website whenever I get really lonely and sexually frustrated, and I’ve come close to doing it again in the past few days after having failed using Tinder to get casual sex.

I like to still think of myself as MGTOW-adjacent or curious. I reject an awful lot of the hate and bitterness and incel labelling that’s unfortunately become associated with the movement, hence why I’m posting in MGTOW2 as it’s more civil in here!

So what are your thoughts? I’m particularly keen to hear from anyone who has gone through a similar experience as me.