Id put this someplace else if i could, but few other places aknowledge the situation revolving around false rape accusations, or give a shit because im a man.

My greatest fear has always been never finding love, and i already struggle with a lot of anxiety. But now im petrified, because now i can never know which women will be genuinely good people, and which will destroy my life and remove all purpose of living. I used to think for this reason i was fortunate that i am bisexual, but gay and bi guys are often just as radical. Im just scared and it makes me worry so much more than i used to. I cant look at women in public, i feel uncomfortable talking to, or even about women; and despite my mother's constant pressure to be a "gentleman", doing so scares me too, for fear one day I'll do something kind out of relfex and throw my life away unknowingly. My mother has isolated us from the rest of our family because they are conservative, and has moved far away from all of my friends, the only people i know who i feel would truly understand any of this. I have nobody to vouch for me, in a big city, in a blue state.

I dont really know why im posting this but it makes me feel better, at least a little. Hopefully someone here will understand.