TL;DR- OP's well paying job is too physically demanding to lift. OP is considering steroids to get the alpha body he wants. OP would like some input on this or some other suggestions on how to get bigger.

I am 30 and I have been a commercial fisherman since I was 17. It is back breaking repetitive work. My joints all ache and pop, I have chronic tendentious and carpal tunnel syndrome. There are very few guys who do what I do over 45, because it just takes such a toll on your body.

Before anyone suggests that I try to find different work, it's out of the question. I make $100K/yr with no high school diploma, so prospects other than fishing are pretty slim. I have a saving plan so that I can start a business when my body won't let me do this kind of work anymore. So I'm not on a dead end path.

My work just takes so much out of me that I need to heal on my days off (we work 16-20hr days, 3-6 days a week). So going to the gym is the last thing I think I should be doing. But my job is almost all cardio, with my naturally tall/thin frame I just can't seem to bulk up.

I drink mass gainer every day. I pound calories to me as much as I can, but I just can't seem to keep much muscle on me. Don't get me wrong I am in good shape and I am cut, but I still just look skinny.

I want to have that body that you get from lifting so bad. I want to have big shoulders and biceps. I know I need this, for me, and for my SMV.

What are my options here to get big? I have been doing a bunch of research over the last few months about steroids. I know there are a ton of dangers that come with them, but from what I have read it seems like most of them can be mitigated if you do everything properly. As of right now that us my plan, I just want some input from TRP'ers as to why this is or is not a good idea.

Thanks for reading and thanks in advance for any replies.