i found this sub for the same reason many of you do. Sexually frustrated and wondering wtf i was doing wrong. Started lifting 8 months ago and developing myself which is great but the pill exposed me to realities like trial by fire.
Im 21 years old and it ripped the bandaid of 20 years of lies right off. Although it has brought some good, it has me mentally distraught.
A part of me wants absolutely nothing to do with people and i just wanna be left alone seeing that every interaction with everyone has a underlying motive. No one talks to you if there isn't something of even a little value to them in it. It seems that "real friends" and relationships are few and far between.
Even when girls give me IOIs, i feel happy for a second then i think "lol im just at the right place right time, she'd do the exact same if some guy walked in right now that's taller than me or has a more chiseled jaw line" Its all fucking fake.
Women are not the innocent creatures i was brought up to believe. Everytime i see a "innocent" looking girl that i might be interested in, all i can think of is her being the subject of some sex story authored by a Chad on here. I wanna get girls because the man in me wants to fuck them but there are still blue pill parts of me that want the "innocent girl, who is only mine". I want girls but i want nothing to do with them. Fuck.
Im fine with isolating myself and getting shit done to improve me for me, until the loneliness sets in. Then i start asking "are you really gonna live your life alone and without others"
Its been an endless cycle of this the past few months. thoughts?
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