Alright guys, I need your help on this one, as I've been through a lot and I've got to a point I can't really push through and it is hindering my life big time.

Some background first. I've been very antisocial for a long-time playing video-games, very little social exposure, no men figures to look up to or guide me, no clue about the game, social dynamics, very poor social skills, shyness, low self-confidence and insecurities. I've been lucky with my looks though and always attracted women, sadly I had no clue how to connect with them, how to escalate so even if they were seducing me and giving me more then obvious cues I didn't know what to do and end up nowhere, to mine and theirs disappointment. I am turning 25 soon, virgin, never had a gf, never kissed with a girl... yeah... amount of regret and pain I carry you can barely imagine...

I've put in lots of work, I've done a lot of self-development, read tons of stuff about seduction, pickup and I feel I know my way around now. I still attract women and still got a lot of attention thanks to my looks, but finally now have the knowledge as well.

Problem I face now is that all I've been through took a big toll on me and I have literally 0 experience at 25 years which is very creepy and cringy. I am very ashamed of having no experience, I have to always dodge in conversation previous relationships, sexual topics etc. which is horrible and I am just putting this burden in front of me for years and it just gets worse with every additional year. Women due to my looks automatically assume I had women and I feel they are really surprised and confused that I'm not following up on their obvious intentions, often they think its something about them...

This problem is hindering my self-confidence big time as I know what to do now, how to physically escalate in theory, but I have never done it, literally 0 experience. I can't convey assertiveness, confidence, directness, boldness, sexuality etc. I don't know how to kiss, yet to have sex... I know it will be very awkward and cringy for the first time and I can't get through this phase. Women I encounter now are only friends of friends or new coworkers in new job... I can't really pick up girls with no experience in clubs... I don't know what to do, how to push through the inexperience.

There will be a point where I will be asked about my previous experiences, should I lie ? ... it will be obvious I lied in my actions. Should I say truth ? How do I explain it, it will creep out women. It's a vicious circle I keep spinning in. Should I get a hookers and practice with them? It will be cringy as fuck anyway, but at least it doesn't spread as through coworkers or friends. But still even if I practiced on hookers, I can't change my past its with me forever and I can't change it, its ruining my life, self-confidence and image and hiding it and lying about it is very hard burden to carry.

I don't know who to turn to with this problem... Hope some of you guys can shed some bright light on my future, I don't know what to do.