TL,DR- my question is How do you divorce a 5-year marriage with somebody that you care about, somebody who liked you back when you weren’t as good as you are now?

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I went to a Big 10 Party School, graduated in 2009 with STEM. I squandered my time there, fucked one or two uglies, but mostly obsessed over my high school 1-itis. Was a nice guy.

After school I began learning Martial Arts and Meditation. My master, from the third world, has red pill world views and he would teach them to me after-hours every night. I began approaching women with confidence and a direct intention, and I started to learn that it works. I have trained every day for the past 9 years and still continue to. I can fight, I am confident, and I am muscular, and I am tall.

I married the first girl to give it up to me, and I am still married with her 7 years later. Bengali woman named Angela. Rich family, Ivy League student, extremely loyal, does not exhibit hypergamy. She is plain, below my SMV, and I have kept her in a constant state of dread (if you get fat, I’m leaving you, etc).

She always steers me toward more, though in my life I want less. She values my career (which I don’t want), my house (which I didn’t want), my car (which I didn’t want), my pet animals (which I didn’t want), my happiness, my well-being. She herself is torn between being the woman I want her to be (house, cooking, maybe part-time job) and the “strong powerful woman” as she pursues her third Masters degree. She works very hard, but is also very immature. She also values my extreme dedication and spirituality, and has sacrificed much of her luxurious lifestyle to work a 9-5 in the states with me. She is also lucky to have a man like me, as far as her culture and family is concerned.

She has the family values that I want in a woman. She wants to travel, she wants to have kids. Her parents are extremely kind and overbearing. The type of people who will buy you $10,000 worth of furniture you don’t want, and cook you a daily meal of food you don’t like to eat. I’ve been molding her for years, but she is stubborn and has her own vision of my future and her future.

I found TRP and game years ago, and it has changed how I talk to women. My teacher gave me a great foundation of red pill principles, but spending time in the Manosphere has built onto of that foundation extravagantly. I am finding myself desired by women I thought out of my league. Women are upset when they find out I am married, something that I don’t often let slip. Every day I get better at this, and I can’t believe it. The problem is, I am married.

My wife and I have fought savagely since the day we were married. We love very hard, but fight savagely. Lately, the fighting has become insane. My teacher, my family, my friends, all caution me NOT TO HAVE KIDS. I have been smart enough in these past 7 years to never get her pregnant, though she would let me at an instant. I am compassionate, I always forgive her, she always apologizes. I never apologize, it is usually some immature part of her behavior that starts fights, but I END THEM viciously with hurtful words and violence (I wouldn’t hit her, but she has hit me many, many, many, many times). I always forgive her tears, I ALWAYS FORGIVE HER TEARS.

I am tired of the fighting, I’m tired of the pressure of worrying about what she wants in life. When we first married, I was able to say “we can have kids once I am a master in 12 years.” Now, I am 3 years away from that goal. I always figured she’d leave me for someone rich or someone better. She is still with me, though.

She wants a PhD, she wants to move to another state, she wants to invest in real estate. I want to sleep on the wood floor, I want to get rid of furniture, I want to live like a cowboy. I want to meditate all day and just have sex afterwards, then go work out. She wants to go to brunch, she wants to go on road trips, she wants to do all of these things. I take cold showers every day, she likes to be pampered and sleep until 12PM on weekends. I am jacked, she is getting fat. She knows I won’t hurt her.

She is approaching 30. In her country, the Wall is like 22. I care about her, and I love her, but I don’t think I can do this any more. The fighting and the pressure to have kids

AskTRP, I hope this stream of consciousness can give you guys any idea of how I feel. She has given up martial arts, spirituality, vegetarianism. Many of the values that convinced me to marry her.

“If you don’t see a future with her, you are just leading her on, you will leave her eventually, stop wasting her time.”

“This is the kind of woman who will loyally raise my kids”

My mind is very conflicted, but my attention is absolutely OUTSIDE of the relationship. I never cheated despite many opportunities.

How do you divorce a 5-year marriage with somebody that you care about, somebody who liked you back when you weren’t as good as you are now.

Has anybody ever dated a loyal asian woman, do you know what I’m talking about???