It was a matter of time. Sick older dog of 15 years is going to be put down 1/22/26. Marriage Split is 9 weeks out basically after 18 years. Got monkey branched. Im moving on, I’m doing fine. Exercising , church, eating healthy, etc.

today has been a day of anger and heartbreak honestly tho. Feeling angry that she didn’t check in with me about her health declining so rapidly or scheduling for her to be put down but I mean even that’s a stupid expectation to have for someone that didn’t respect the sanctity of the marriage right? Just told me the date. This weekend is my last weekend and she said she can only give me Sunday pm for a bit. I’m prepared mentally to show up and have her rebound there because she’s a weak person. I can do it emotionally unprovoked and br cool and appear stoic but I am worried I’ll get provoked and resort to doing something stupid. I’m not worried about not being able to handle myself moreso being triggered if that makes sense. I can be calm like I said but I can admit it’s a fragile peace given the situation with my pup. I loved that damn little thing. 15 years I had her. Anyways she hasn’t even responded with the times I can go see her but I shouldn’t be surprised like I said. Just annoyed and pissed and hurt at the core of it obviously. Robbed me of the last 2mo of her life and she was my lil partner so in all likelihood accelerated the end of her life because of my absence.