Hey everyone,

I'm not divorced yet, but right on the verge. For like the 5th time. Neither of us seem to have the guts to call it quits. Everytime I make up my mind to put my foot down, she has a way of saying things so I feel like I'm giving up, and I hate giving up. I'm also not sure it's the right decision because we really do love each other and have a great friendship, we just cannot seem to resolve conflicts well. Things often escalate and we fight weekly, often about stupid things. I often feel like I'm not enough for her during these fights. I don't feel that way when things are good, and so I'm stuck in the middle. I'm convinced if this does end, I want nothing to do with marriage again, it's hell and idk if it's worth it. But I'm terrified it is worth it and I'll always regret this decision. I wish she had cheated on me just so this would be straight forward.