I’m about to be divorced since in my state you have to be separated before filing. I’m a 30m and going through that process now. I ultimately was having an affair at the time and I accept full responsibility for what I have done to my ex. I feel so guilty about it. I feel horrible for what I did. I didn’t expect her to stay or us get back together but she seems to be just trying to delete me from her life. To the point where we had two dogs together and one of them died and she never told me anything about it. I found out from the vet we use to take him to ended up calling me since I was still an emergency contact. Since the year is almost up from being separated I feel worse than when this initially happened. I feel the guilt, depression, anxiety, I have flashbacks all the time. Of course I am trying to date now the person I was in the affair with but they have there own problems from a previous relationship that has leaked into our relationship and she thinks I’m going to cheat on her. I thought about switching careers since I’m not making nearly enough money as I should and I understand the job market sucks at the moment. My parents are very supportive but I feel like I’m not getting support from my friends at all. I feel like I’m the friend that just is sad and bitches and says why me right now and if so then I hate being that person. I am in therapy right now and looking to get on some ADHD medicine to hopefully help with anxiety and the massive brain fog I have. I’m tired as hell throughout the day and constantly have negative thoughts. Basically…I feel like I’m a pms bitch at the moment. Does it get any better? I feel scared to live alone and scared to be alone where I feel like I depend on other people right now. Any help is really appreciated and we will get through this guys! Thank you!