Does anybody else feel like not enough? Like, I never cheated, never lied, always tried to show up in my relationship (not perfectly), and showed up as a father… and this still didn’t stop my ex from cheating on me, lying to me, manipulating me, and eventually taking our home. It is so painful too because I can look back now with 20/20 and see how I allowed a lot of how she treated me.

No one really cares either. No one cares that she did all these terrible things. She has friends/supports while I am trying to make it through life mostly alone. They are telling her how brave she is and how justified she is for her choices. I am living in a studio bc I foolishly trusted this person that said we could work on things as long as I moved out, while she lives in a 3 bedroom/2bath. As soon as I moved out, she blocked me on everything, did the silver-bullet method, and told everyone I was a monster. Since she did the silver-bullet method, my lawyer advised me not to go back to our family home.

It is just the injustice of it all that really gets to me. I lost everything and no one cares. I feel very emasculated too bc I don’t really have anything to show after a 15-year relationship. I am starting completely over, in a foreign country, at almost 40 years of age. My retirement funds are going to pay for lawyers and I anticipate not having any excess funds for years as it goes through the court.

All the while I am trying to show up as a parent even though I never really had any good examples of parenting to pass-down. I am terrified that she will continue her lies to try to take custody from me.