Hi Everyone -

It's always easier seeing things on the outside. It's been over 2 years since we split and I have my moments where I give her a pass on what she is currently and what she did to me in the past. Sometimes i feel empathy for her and other times I wish she just disappeared.

Difficult when you are sharing a kid and always reminded of her. I can't rob my kid of relations with the other family - it's his full right and cannot speak ill. I know over time, my child will come to know the truth. I do not like running into her. It just reminds me of the good and bad. I also forgive quickly to not hold resentment.

For the most part, we only talk and msg about our kid and I ignore everything else. I support her still as I know it lines in the interest of our child. For example, I put up a bs commute for 2yrs because I know she couldn't afford daycare and if he did not go, his well-being would have been compromised. I put up with it because I have resources she does not (ie. Family support, car, $, etc).

Now school has started, he's with me thru the week but I have to still get him from school Friday evenings and meet her at the closest transit station so it's convenient for her and of course it helps my kid. She can do it, but I have a car and she does not. I still get him more than she does but prefer she do the runs on her own to experience the added responsibility. I rather her pick him up and drop him off on Monday to avoid her and her take the full responsibility than continue to lean on me.

Today we were texting to go over meals and so forth and saw she saved me as pic of an angry poo emoji (contact pic) from a screenshot (she toook an active screenshot as i was texted her and my name and emoji showed up as a notification).

Part made me laugh since I know she's hating. Other made me mad because it reminds me how fake she is being with me while talking negative stuff about me.

I remind myself with the .... and????

I know the answer is and always should remain as Truly, who cares. I know I should not at all. Everything is nonsense. Working on my path to indifference. Challenging always to absorb the nonsense. We know if it was the other way around she would never support me as i am. But I always conclude with: for the child.