Dont know where to start. Its the first week. Its been a roller coaster already. I have tried to make things work entire last year and I ended our relationship on my birthday. I have tried everything. Taking 90% of the choirs, being understanding giving her room. Spent shit loads of quality time with my son swimming amusement parks etc. I have mentioned couple counceling to try to talk things through. Even after break up I recommended counceling to get through this best way possible for the sake of our son.

I love her and want the best for her, but I cant be in a place where there is no interaction and she wants to csll 100% of the shots. Heck I dont care I csnt remember last time we had sex. But no interaction / emontinel support / kiss / hug is rough. Her going to bed at 1-2 am week days, because she doesnt have a job. So feels like sleeping alone any ways, even leading to me sometimes sleeping in the guest room to get decent sleep.

I know I in no way am perfect. Like 2 years ago I had a rough time where I was the one checked out. One night when really thinking over things cried uncontrolable, because I didnt want to live like this. It was my wake up call. I have spent every day since to improve myself. Be there for my family. And I am damn glad I did. If we got a divorce 2years ago I would most likely never had have the bond with my son as I do now. He is the one that keeps me going.

But now we have broken up, living in the same house until its sold. I have really no idea whats next. How to start a new life st age 40 after 15 years with the same woman. How do I get new friends? We move close to her family and really have no network left. I need to rebuild everything and I aint moving away from my son.

Also how to act now? 1000 thoughts and so many uncertaincies.