I had been doing fairly well for a while but today everything that I have been carrying alone for so long came crashing down on me. I am fighting the temptation to just give up on life. I am so tired. Its been 10 months of separation and I am still waiting on paperwork to start my divorce. My ex has never taken any accountability, has treated me terribly, and demonstrates how little she cares about me at every interaction.

I am so very alone. My entire life has imploded and I have lost everything I have gained in 37 years of life. All I have are my clothes, some of my son’s belongings, and some pots and pans. She took everything else. I don’t even own a car anymore. I have nothing. I am trying desperately to be a father to my son but I am always so tired. My ex even did the silver-bullet method and now I am having to deal with that in the courts.

I live in a country where I barely speak the language and I am so very isolated. My only relationship is with my son but he is 5 so of course I can’t share anything of what is going on with me.